I keep seeing scenes from the Matrix in my mind this morning. Probably because I feel like I have been living my own personal version of that movie for more than four years now. In my version, I am lingering in that scene where Neo is recovering from his reentry to reality but not yet ready for what’s real. I know with 100% certainty that things are not what they seem. I just don’t know what to do about it yet. I wish Morpheus could offer me some advise right now and tell me how his sunglasses stayed on his face.
Honey and I had a deep conversation the other day about this very subject; not the Matrix part but the part of feeling trapped in what we have created for ourselves up to this point in our lives. In 2015 we started removing, one layer at at time, all the skins we wore over the years. Then 2019 came and we got down to the nitty gritty stuff. Those last layers were attached like tentacles in every cell of our being – painful stuff – stuff that took a lot of elbow grease and laboring to remove. But we did it. I am proud of Honey. I am proud of me. I am proud of us.
2020 is the year to be naked and vulnerable. It is the year we plan to live so loud it hurts. I know this. I feel this in my bones. But the first week of January is already over and I am a bit discouraged that it feels the same as last week…as last year. Daily routines and responsibilities threaten to keep me exactly the same keeping me on lock down or dragging me back to old narratives in my mind. Well, I am here on social media making a public declaration.
FUCK YOU, RESPONSIBILITIES AND ROUTINES!
THIS IS A NEW NAKED ME SO I STAY AWAY.
I WANT TO LEARN HOW TO DREAM BIGGER.
I WANT FEEL PASSION IN ALL THAT I DO.
I WANT THE HIGHEST VERSION OF ME TO LEAD THE WAY.
I WANT MY SOUL TO SING AND DANCE.
I WANT TO PLAY.
I WANT TO EXPERIENCE THIS LIFE AS I NEVER HAVE BEFORE.
I WANT TO LOVE BIG.
I WANT TO SHAKE UP EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE.
I WANT TO GIVE WHAT IS MINE TO GIVE.
I WANT TO BUILD CONNECTIONS WITH YOU.
I WANT TO BE RICH BEYOND MY WILDEST DREAMS.
I WANT TO BE BOLD.
I WANT TO BE A WARRIOR.
And that’s just a good place to start.
2020 is my year, people;
a series of incredible ALL-CAP moments strung together
Honey and I want to get to work. We want to help ourselves, [help you?], figure it all out.
We want to live in an ALL-CAP world and share it with you, too.
[LOOPHACKERS with Sandra & Fresh.] I am ready to start for real.
Our creation space lies somewhere between these formats.
I hope you come and find us!
IN PERSON EVENTS
ALL OF THE ABOVE